I got to thinking last night after I posted about life a decade-plus after being “Dooced” …
Posting personal stuff was my way of diary-ing and also having people not argue with me.
I also got to thinking about Jon Stewart leaving the “Daily Show” after 16 years of absolute magic, IMHO.
As Lewis Black said about Jon, yeah he’s an icon and a fixture and a trusted source of news for many citizens. But he’s got so much creativity left in him that this is a chance for HIM to do something to make him grow.
And I thought, wow. He’s not stopping a good thing. He’s opening up the door to a universe of greater things.
I think that about my little life. I want so badly to just be comfortable — to enjoy my overpriced apartment, to love my work long enough to build up a nest egg, to just keep finding pleasure in the little things since the big things don’t seem to be in store for me.
But …
I want my fire lit from both ends of the fuse.
I want an earth-shattering, pillow-biting-to-muffle-the-sound orgasm like I had last night, but every day.
I want to be part of something not just special, but spectacular.
Keep your mediocrity away from me, world. I’m ready to risk it all for the chance to be over-the-top thrilled that I was put on this earth.
BRING IT. And I will, too. I promise.