I have an annoying bug buzzing around my house and it made me think of my meeting yesterday.
As usual, I got through it and was useless the rest of the day.
I am always cheerful and gracious. Then I short-circuit.
I did a thing this week. That’s how I phrased it to the 40 people in Teams that I sent it to. “I did a thing.”
I was kinda proud of it.
People loved it.
Boss had seen it and, while I would never in a million years expect a good job or a thank you for this or anything, he didn’t like it.
Said I got it wrong. That xx is true, not what I said.
I said OK I see your perspective. Thank you for giving me perspective, as it helps me with how to approach you in the future.
Like he did me a huge favor.
< / Carolyn >
I sincerely do not lose sleep over stuff like this.
But I did mention to the two people who loved The Thing most … hey, this guy said I missed the mark, so I guess don’t take it as any sort of gospel.
I won’t share their replies.
But I will say my own thoughts after seeing this fly annoy my cats.
Which is A) I would get a lot fewer customer emails if the statement I heard were true. And B) one of us has done this very job for 25 years.
There aren’t a lot of “me”s in the field anymore.
Most got promoted beyond their abilities.
Some went to jail or, at least, have years of litigation behind and/or ahead of them.
The rest said fuck it and changed fields, had babies, otherwise ran the other way.
So, as an OG who hasn’t gotten promoted beyond her abilities (or promoted, really), and as someone who spent a couple days with our customers, I’m going to respectfully continue to do me.
I would imagine anyone reads this and thinks I’m angry or unhappy, and I’m not.
Honestly I love being the age and confidence level I’m at.
I used to have a momma who would let me tell the stories 400 times. And every time, she’d say fuck them for being mean to her baby. Because her baby is “Dawnie smart fart.”
I’ll never hear that again with my ears.
But I still hear it with my heart.
And I thank the universe every day for giving me a momma who made sure the tapes that will replay in my head for the rest of my life are ones that reaffirm my awesomeness.
In place of words I hear that are just plain wrong sometimes.