Some days …

All you need is a hug. It’s been so long since I’ve had one, I’m to the point of dreaming about them. Last night, I dreamed that someone I haven’t seen in a ridiculously long time and hope expect to never see again just grabbed me and held me ridiclously tightly. I fought it, of course, because I am not the touchy-feely type and wasn’t about to accept anything from this long-lost figure. But, once I stopped resisting, it felt good. Really, really good.

I’ve spent my life loving my solitude, but the world is a lonely place when you don’t have anyone to come home to. No wonder I’ve embraced working ’round-the-clock the way I have … it was my only way of having something dependent upon the amount of care I could give it. But when the weekend comes, the only thing I have to wrap myself in is a fleece blanket covered with cat fur.

We all send virtual hugs to each other, and I always hug my cats (mostly Maddie because she seeks it out), but it’s high time I added “finding someone to hug me” to the to-do list. Amazing how the human body craves contact when it’s been without it for awhile.

On iTunes: Jennifer Warnes, “Right Time of the Night”

3 Responses to Some days …

  1. Anonymous :

    Mail Hug by John 1/29/2005

    I mailed a hug to you.
    I just put it in the post.
    But will it make it there in time
    to comfort you the most?

    For at times the post is sketchy.
    And sometimes the mail is lost.
    But if my hug to you went missing
    what would be the cost?

    Perhaps I could get insurance.
    Or maybe use an extra stamp or two.
    But what is the guarantee these days
    with something so important to you?

    What would a mailed hug feel like?
    Would it be strong, enveloping and warm?
    Could you find comfort and safety in it
    or shelter from the storm?

    I hope my mailed hug locates you.
    And I hope it arrives post haste.
    Because my hug to you is this
    poem and that smile upon your face!

    –John 2/28/2005

  2. Erica :

    It’s been so long since I’ve had one, I’m to the point of dreaming about them.I’ve spent my life loving my solitude, but the world is a lonely place when you don’t have anyone to come home to.I totally know exactly how you feel. I’ve gone through similar phases myself. Not so much lately having the girlfriend at all, but it was years and years with no regular hugging before that and it’s tough sometimes. I’d hug you if I could. 😉

  3. Dawn :

    I hope the day comes that I can get a *real* hug from both of you. We all live too far away from each other! Thank you, though, for hugging me in any way you can — I do feel the love! 😀