Connections
Sometimes, the intensity and depth of my friendships scare the boojabbers out of me. Maybe it’s because my circle is such a tiny one anymore, but that just means the bonds are all the stronger.
I have a friend who’s having a baby. Her second, actually. I was there throughout the first pregnancy, the traumatic birth, the rough first year and the smooth sailing ever since. With the second one, I’ve not been around much for it, and I was worried that I wouldn’t have same connection with the new kid on the block like I did with the first.
But, I’m starting to think that the universe heard my worries, because when I first heard the little one was on its way, I knew it was going to be a boy. Which was recently confirmed. I knew with the first that she would be a girl. Hell, with the first, I thought my friend was pregnant long before she thought she was! 🙂 (It was the ghastly pallor — totally unmistakable.)
But the weird news was this: While I might never have kids and am not sure at this point in time that my life would be empty without any, I always had a name in mind — just in case. I had kept it to myself and never told a soul about it because, well, I’m just private like that (despite having a blog at my name dot com! Hah!). The important part of the story is that I never mentioned this name to my friend.
So, I’ve been wondering what she was gonna name the little fella. So she called the other day to sing happy birthday to me, and she later revealed what she plans to name the little man … and if you guess that she said THE name that I’d had on my mind, then you win a prize. (What the prize will be, however, I have NO idea!)
Anyway, once I got past being floored, I was overjoyed. I do have a connection to him, after all. Not like there was ever any doubt, because he’s my friend’s child and I will love him as much as her other one and as much as her, too. Of course, like Tiff said, now I don’t HAVE to have a kid of my own at all!!!
In any event, welcome to the world, Jordan. I can’t wait to meet you when you arrive!
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