My Groundhog Day
Every once in a while, your heart gets ahead of itself.
“They” say there’s no easier way to make a decision than to flip a coin. Suddenly you know what your heart wants.
Then there are times when you didn’t even KNOW you wanted something till it dawned on you that you can’t have it. Not right now, anyway. Maybe not ever.
I didn’t know I wanted you. Not till it occurred to me that, once again, what I want seems to be of absolutely no consequence to the universe.
I’m so tired of forcing myself to live without hope to avoid moments like these. Good thing I was smart enough not to bother coming alive this time around. Even though I was planning to figure out how I could.