Unblocked
Here’s to the first poem I’ve written in two years. My inspiration came back, and I shall entertain this muse as long as she’s willing to stay. 😉
Again
I hang up the phone
And smile for moments that turn into hours
Just for the fact that we’ve connected
It’s been so long
Since I’ve felt the slightest inspiration
To write, to rhyme, to create
Anything that will outlive
The daydreams and memories
That I never see fit to record on paper
Because the images are too precious
Too tantalizing
To wish to share
Even with a computer screen
Yet without even noticing it
You’ve inspired me
To write
To dream again
To wonder what if
And I don’t know what to do with this
Sudden desire to caputre my fascination
With the cerulean and seafoam
Shades in your eyes
The curve of your lashes
The faint smile on your lips
When you’re intrigued by my chatter
Or your incredulity at my boldness
When I start to say something
That could change this easiness between us
For a long time to come
We both have
So much to overcome
Within ourselves
For this to ever stand a chance
Of not plummeting into some flaming abyss
And I know
Even though you are so much more
Worldly than I
That I am more ready for this
Than you may ever be
Your ghosts are more recent, more vivid
Of love left unresolved
And questions unanswered
From beyond this reality
And it was this passion
That captivated you so
That drew me in and
Caused me to invite myself to stay
Just to learn
How someone could love so much
With such passion and depth
And it makes me wonder
If you could ever love again
And if I could ever be so fortunate
To feel a little bit of it
Or maybe more
If you could spare it
Or if you could allow your heart
To let someone else, someone different in
What would she have said
Were she around
To give you her blessing
Do you think
She wants you to take the love
You so generously gave to her
And to let someone else
Feel so bathed in adoration
As she once enjoyed
Could you do it again
Or would it only come from half your heart
If it could ever flow again
How I await
The right moment
To come along
For something, anything
To manifest itself
To let me know
Whether to hang in there
Or let you go
But in any event
I’m all the better for having known you
And having had the opportunity to see
That a woman can be loved
More than she ever dreamed possible
And it gives me hope that
Whether or not you are the one to give it to me
I still shouldn’t stop believing that it exists
Because clearly it did
Clearly it can
And I want nothing less
For myself
So thank you
For allowing me to dream
A little while longer
A little more boldly
A little more expectantly
Thank you for giving me
The courage to break the writer’s block
And dream out loud
Again.