Friday Five
This one’s gonna hurt.
1. How many times have you truly been in love?
In the truest sense of being “in love,” I’d say never. But I’ve had strong, strong feelings for certain people, and I’m fairly certain that those feelings were reciprocated, only with much less passion that I possessed. But then again, maybe they were just as scared as I was.
2. What was/is so great about the person you love(d) the most?
The funny thing about the passage of time is that you tend to forget all that was wrong during what was then the present, so when you look back, you have to be careful of not getting whiplash — most of the hurt has gone away, and times past seem so much more ideal than they were at the time. And because I always get a song in my head when I write, the tune of the moment is Vertical Horizon’s “Grey Sky Morning”.
But to answer the question, I fall in love with hearts — I truly don’t care what is on the outside. And of the three people who are on my mind as I answer these questions, each one was funny and caring and dynamic.
3. What qualities should a significant other have?
I’ve gotta go back to the kind heart thing. And an IQ over a certain number wouldn’t hurt, either. 😉 It would take a strong person to put up with me, so I need someone who’s attentive and caring, yet who knows that I need my space, and a lot of it. Trust is such an issue for me, and it takes me a long time to develop it, so I need someone who is emotionally and physically expressive, or I will be wondering what s/he is doing behind my back.
4. Have you ever broken someone’s heart?
As I’ve been told, yes. Quite a few times, actually. I didn’t mean to, but in one case that’s fresh in my mind, I didn’t know what else to do, and yes, my heart aches because of the way things had to be.
5. If there was one thing you could teach people about love, what would it be?
I don’t know a fucking thing about love. I fear it isn’t meant to be in my life, as far as a significant other. (I’m almost 30 — bear with me.) I don’t regret loving those whom I’ve loved, but I wish I would have been bolder, stronger, more confident — because I would have held on for dear life and shown them how much they really meant to me. One was a single straight guy, one was a woman and one was a married man. That just goes to show that your heart is blind when it comes to finding its match, so I s’pose my advice is to do what the little voices tell you to do. 😉