‘Everything can be fixed in the rewrite’

Well, I was a drooling fangirl as the legendary Chris Baty signed my copy of his fantastic book, “No Plot? No Problem!”

Maddie was highly upset that I had to remove the book from her paws to take it to Barnes & Noble at Metro Center to get the autograph.

He complimented what I was wearing (!) and asked questions and applauded me for being a freelancer. Basically, he also gave me that extra “don’t give up” momentum that Pratt started by giving me the book last week.

Anyway, if I haven’t said it in awhile, life is good, and I love living it in D.C. I just need to find a way to stay here that doesn’t involve a cardboard box or a street corner, because it has come to that. But Chris had lots of good things to say about staying focused on the novel, because even if it’s crap, who cares, because we are still NOVELISTS!!!

My book is marked up with my thoughts as well as where I’ve highlighted, underlined, circled or otherwise kissed passages that made me happy. I wrote down something he said tonight: “All words are good words, and everything can be fixed in the rewrite.”

I applied that as a metaphor for my life. My words got me into jams (the biggest one being a few months ago). But they were said (typed) in earnest. And while the current version of my life, well, sucks right now, I will fix it in the near future. I just need to think of it in terms of rewriting my ending instead of accepting the current epilogue.

I feel so weak anymore — it even shows in my voice. But during the ride home, I realized that I’ve got a lot of fight left in me, and I need every ounce of strength to struggle to survive. That’s the name of the game these days. But am I a stranger to struggling? Hardly. The odds are just higher now, more so than ever. I have so much more to lose than I ever did (including eight pounds acquired since I quit smoking two months ago!). I need a miracle to happen. Really. And I need the strength to set that miracle in motion.

And tonight, I might have found it.

On iTunes: Jewel, “Down So Long”

2 Responses to ‘Everything can be fixed in the rewrite’

  1. Erica :

    One thing I admire about you Dawn is that you don’t just have hobbies and interests. You have things you truly bring you joy. And you express that so well.

  2. Dawn :

    I appreciate you saying that. Never thought of it that way, but you’re right. If I show any amount of interest in something or someone, then it’s because I’m totally present and want to be focused. 🙂