‘Luck always seems to find you’
Got my nails did yesterday.
Vi wanted to hear all about Japan.
I did a dumb thing and started with the hard shit.
But then I talked about how I ended up on the Lucky Train without even trying … without even NOTICING till I grabbed the handle above me …
And she said luck always seems to find you.
I’ve noticed this my whole life.
I told her it’s sad because I’ve traveled with my cousin before. And it seems like the meals are always blah or the rooms are subpar or the communication is just off.
Like my good luck can’t override hers.
I think about that with Momma a lot.
When we were all little, the way you learned to swim was someone’s dad tossed you into a pool.
It was her friend Donna’s dad who “taught” us all in their above-ground pool.
I never learned. Neither did Mom.
I’ve made the comment in these archives that she’s the type you’d throw into the water and she’d sit on the pool floor, waiting for rescue.
Like, for as lucky as I have been my whole life, that luck never seemed to fully extend to her.
Like we’d get pedicures together, and mine would be pleasant and she’d come out with her skin all jacked up. Or we’d get meals and mine would be great and hers wrong. Or I’d find a great dentist for me and hers literally pulled the wrong tooth.
I spent decades wishing that my influence would be the stronger one. But it always seemed like things evened out, rather than tilted in the favor of my disposition toward good fortune.
For saying I am consumed with grief most of the time, don’t think I don’t see that things are very good. Maybe even a little easier than before.
It’s hard to travel with people now.
Like, Mom and I were practically the same person. Could share meals. Could agree on anything.
Now to do that with people I barely know in that capacity is weird.
Fortunately we’re all adults and respect that compromise is great but we’re also set in our ways.
Like when I moved out in Japan. Kelly just did the same thing with her friend she was staying with. She texted me that she had to move to a hotel for the sake of their friendship. I said you realize you could have just copied-pasted the text I sent you from Japan, right?
Anyway, she’s proof that luck found me when she applied for a job at my company.
Don’t get me wrong, we’ll probably be ready to leave each other after we go to Disney next month. But that’s how it is. A break is never a bad thing, just a reset.
Anyway I guess what I wanted to say there is that when two lucky people hang out together, you don’t need Disney for it to be magical. But it sure helps.