‘For what we do and what we lose, we are not adequately compensated’

January 31st, 2015, 9:33 AM by Goddess

“For what we do and what we lose, we are not adequately compensated.” — Victor Gantry, “State of Affairs” season 1 episode 10

While I was missing out on having a life, a person I once hired to be my protege actually surpassed the master. And will earn twice my salary this year. And do all the things I set out to do so long ago.

I can be happy for them but I cannot contain the blame I have for everyone and everything (including myself) that I continue to sacrifice my heart and soul and creativity to babysit, support others’ dreams, take external partners’ crap and die so much on the inside that the years are shortening in which the outside will eventually catch up. And everything I once had to offer will be dust right along with the rest of me.



Asking for a friend

January 28th, 2015, 6:36 PM by Goddess

Does EVERY night have to be a late one?

I have been shoving duties off my plate left and right. Problem is, they boomerang right on back, in one way or another.

Meanwhile I keep remembering OTHER things I have to do.

And now a three-hour meeting at the worst possible time when I was hoping to knock out some of those bonus urgent projects.

You know, in addition to the mornings and nights when I’m sitting around by myself.

Feels like I just can’t ever catch up.



I love a challenge, but …

January 26th, 2015, 3:27 PM by Goddess

I have a funny feeling that completing my newest, biggest task to date is either going to land me in the unemployment line or the loony bin.

I stand a better chance of controlling a zombie attack than seeing this through to a successful completion.

In any event, I don’t know that loyalty and hard work and sacrificing your time/soul is what gets you ahead. However, it sure does elevate your blood pressure.

My goal in life (at least during 12-ish hours each day) is to produce actionable content. Sometimes the only action it inspires is to make me want to throw myself off a bridge.

I could use some help around here …



The three-minute extended remix isn’t long enough for today

January 23rd, 2015, 2:05 PM by Goddess

So many dicks.



Pays to be an idiot

January 16th, 2015, 8:59 PM by Goddess

My friend texted me today to tell me the stupidest person in his company got a promotion and a raise.

Six hours later, I sent the very same text back because it happened under my nose too.

My friend said he’s just going to act stupid too.

I think I’m going to follow suit.

It’s either that or we give up. Which is becoming an attractive option. Especially after one of my boys told me I “need a raise” (and I quote) because my workload (and how much of it I ACTUALLY ACHIEVE) blows his mind.

Being smart doesn’t pay. Working nights and weekends doesn’t pay. Not knowing how to find your way out of the birth canal without someone shoving an iPhone with Siri up your mother’s cooch? Gets you into your next tax bracket.

I will try very hard not to think about that as I work the weekend AND the so-called Monday holiday.